......that's what he said

...."i'm sorry son for raising you this way son bc its going to be extremely difficult for you".... today i decided to dedicate my life to serving God and doing his work... and that's the response my father gave me, why? maybe bc that's the life he once had...21yrs of his life giving so much but it took a lot from him too... is he angry? no, but i believe he's been manipulated by the system and unfortunately has affected him in a way that...so how will this affect me? by raising me through example, my father taught me about bureaucracy in our society, but the most important... put God first...and that was my response to what he said... "dad how can i be wrong doing what God wants me to do?"... i mean the fact that my life is going to be difficult bc i serve my Lord and Savior sound ridiculous right?... pilgrims chose to come to america to escape religious persecution from the church and from the English monarchy (which makes a lot of sense)... but then i had to really think...really go into what makes the world go round... money,success,freedom.... but none of these things are actually obtainable in our society; why you ask? bc there's not enough success or a large enough amount of money to even buy freedom in our society... so this is where things begin to get faded... society versus God.... hmmmmmmmmmmm that's interesting there was a time when i thought our society was built on the foundation of Faith... crazy i chose the society for a long while and you know what i found? fear, emptiness, fake-ness, loneliness, drugs, failed relationships, broken hearts (lol, <-exactly, how do you love when you  don't know what love is).... then you know what happen? go ahead ask me... i dare you... i begin to realize what love is....for God so loved the world that he gave his son....his SON... to die... death... for me and my society.... as i sit here and cry i want to know that theres more for you and me or me and you then we allow ourselves to see... i've fallen and I cant get up... i don't want to get up.... its time for a change no obama lol but like obama...something different..or should i just say we need to get back to the roots our so called forefathers placed for us....honestly it doesn't matter though bc i know what needs to be done.... so you lose world...but YOUR not lost....but maybe you are... but not for longgggggggggggggg..... i'm on a mission, to love longer, harder, and faithfully.... bc honestly it doesn't matter what you said Dad, actions speak louder than words... and so the family business continues lol.... MAN I LOVE YOU LORD, YOU COMPLETE ME, AND IT WOULD BE AN HONOR SERVE YOU!

*excuse some of the language of this music video but the message is more powerful!
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